Purpose

I hear the word purpose in my spirit.

Anna, I have a purpose for your life. You will fulfill my call for your life in my perfect plan and design. As you pursue Me, it will all unfold before your eyes. Trusting Me is the first step. Trust Me to guide you. Trust Me to speak to you and through you. Yes, you are MINE. Yes, I have purposed for thunder to roar from your belly. The very deep things of God. You will say as I command and do what I command. And this will be a testimony of My grace and purpose for your life. As you obey, there you will see miracles, signs and wonders. They will be for my glory and for My purpose and design. My kingdom advancing, that is what you will see. And it will be a sign and a wonder to all who know you and to all who see. So, this day, is plain to see, trust in Me and you will see and know.

You love the midnight hour...

Father,

Sweet whispers at the midnight hour, that has been how You have come to me. This week I have been plagued by sleepless nights. I actually spent time laying in bed praying and seeking Your face. Though You seemed distant, I believe You were the cause of my sleepless nights. You were gently guiding me to a place of rest and peace. You were revealing to me anew the purposes and plans You have for me. You were returning me to a place of authority You had given me that I had handed over to the devil. Yes, I gave him all my authority and for about 5 years now I have stood in a corner being a punching bag for the enemy. Yes, I was huddled there in fear, and all the while getting worse and worse. I didn't know I was doing this. I thought I just didn't believe in faith teachings anymore. I thought I didn't believe in healing anymore. I did pray and ask for healing. I even commanded the manifestation to come and spoke the word. But what I didn't do was really stand up in my right and authority and tell the devil he has no right in my life. I decided long ago to not pay him any attention, that maybe that was the way to deal with the devil. But by doing that I gave him the right to use me as his punching bag. And I lost my voice. I lost my thunder. The thunder You spoke, Father, into my very being. Your Word would THUNDER out of me. I wondered if that word would ever come true as I continued to yield myself over to the devil. Giving him my gifting, giving him my purpose, and allowing depression to cover me like a blanket. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't find freedom. I couldn't find my voice. But my Father, You wouldn't let me stay there. You prodded me. Finally You broke through revealing to me step by step what I had done. First You told me all I was doing was for the wrong reasons, to gain man's approval. You told me I didn't need theirs, but to do it because of my love for You. You would bring me to a place of rest. Second, You showed to me a huge offense in my life, and I repented of that. Third, You showed me that I handed it all over to the devil. And he was able to take from me my peace, joy, love, patience, purpose, call, gift, etc. This stirring rose up in me tonight laying in bed praying. I had to yell at the devil (of course I did it quietly cause my family is sleeping), I told him to give it all back, it belongs to me, I am standing in my authority and taking it all back. He has to return it to me sevenfold. Sevenfold anointing. Sevenfold authority. Sevenfold peace. Sevenfold joy. Sevenfold patience and love. Sevenfold. That is what the bible says. Everything is being multiplied back to me that the devil has stolen. I know it, I will see my gift multiply.
Freedom is coming, Freedom right now
Freedom in the presence of my Lord and King.

I danced a bit and sang a new song to my God. He is mine and I am His! My whole life is His. I yield myself to Him and humble myself before Him. I will go where ever He sends me, say whatever He tells me, Do whatever He tells me to do. My life is HIS!!!

This week has been both a trying week and an encouraging week. I think I broke through, though not to other side yet, but I got a revvy that has hit my core and I know if I ever get it, I will be free. I learned that there is a rest that God has designed for us as believers. That rest is in His love. We are to cease from dead works. Hebrews 4:9-10 Dead works is the things we do to try to "earn" God's love, we cannot earn it we already have it. So those works are dead or lifeless. Someone said once that God's work is not tiring. But it is if you are doing it to earn His love. If you are doing it out of His love for us, then we have the strength and grace to do what He is calling us to do. And in that there is no striving, no wearyness, no pain. There is rest, there is love, there is peace. I find my identity in You Father.
Another scripture that goes along with this is that His yoke is easy, His burden is light.

Father, I commit myself to You in this. I invite You in to show me where in my life I believed a lie that I had to earn love and acceptance. And then help me forgive and be forgiven and get on the other side of the lie. In Jesus Name I pray. Amen

Invade vs. invite

I was going to ask You to invade my memories and my heart to bring healing to my heart. But You reminded me that you would NEVER "invade" me, invade denotes hostile, going where you are not asked, or violating. God would never violate me. God only goes where he has been invited.
So Holy Spirit, Father God, and Jesus my Lord, I invite you to come in to my memories, and into my heart to find the places where I was once hurt and bring healing to those areas. Help me go to the places I believed a lie and bring truth to that wounded child in me and healing and comfort. I believe if I do this, I will find the freedom I seek.
It is painful. But it is needed in order to find the place where people's opinions no longer matter, where I am free to be Anna, because I know You love me and accept me just the way I am. I am ready Father to allow You in to the depths of me.
You desire truth in the inward parts. Yes.... I am ready... Come, Lord, let's take a journey together.

A house

Pro 24:3 Through wisdom is a house built; and by understanding it is established:


Pro 24:27 Prepare thy work without, and make it fit for thyself in the field; and afterwards build thine house


2Ch 6:2 But I have built a house of habitation for thee, and a place for thy dwelling forever.


Psa 4:8 I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.

Chasing God...........

Where do I begin?

Today, Father, I chase after You. You are there before me, still waiting, still loving, still so patient. And I busy myself with life. I busy myself making breakfast. I busy myself with laundry, dishes, phone calls, internet, and so many things. Yet I long to know You so much better. You who lives inside of me. You who desires truth in my inward being. Why do I run from Your love? Why do I run from Your healing touch? Why do I eat to drown out the pain and the anguish in my heart instead of running to You for relief?

Be my strong tower today, Father, as I face the uncomfortable.
Be my refuge and strength when I am weak.
Fill my heart with Your life source. Fill my mouth with Your words, and let me taste of You and know that You are good.
Today I will be still and I will know that you are God!
There is no one else I need but You.
I love You!

I think I know now where God is taking me....

Today at church, Dave preached about how God wants to be our friend, to have a greater intimacy with us. Friendship denotes intimacy. And yet, God wants us to go even further, to realize we are his child (son or daughter), He loves us and accepts us, and He approves of us just as we are, before we have done anything for Him. God wants me to find my identity as His daughter, to know He accepts me, and He approves of me. And if I have those three things as m foundation, then nothing can separate me from Him and His love. Before I can minister His grace and anointing purely, I must know those things deeply. I must have a close relationship with Him. That means talking to Him all throughout my day. Including Him in everything I do. In everywhere I go. He wants to be my best friend and my Father. What greater relationship is there? But the problem is we live like we do not have a relationship with Him. And yet He is always wooing us to Him. Longing for us to bask in His presence. Longing for us to know everything about Him. :)

I am coming, Father, I am coming....
As I draw closer, the weights of the world are falling off...
I am running to You Father, I can't be far away for long...
You are what sustains me, You are my life source...
I am drawing nearer, I need You so in my life...
I see Your arms are open wide
ready to embrace me and welcoming me home
Home is where You are...
I am running to You Father, I long for Your embrace
I am running to You Father, I need Your tender love
I am running to You Father, chains of pain are broken off
I am running to You Father, where I can find Your peace
Running, running, running